Before I go to bed, I just have to get this off me. Today, I was filled with regret. My aunt whom I'm very close to passed away of cancer in the morning; and if that's not enough to make me sad, I had put back visiting her in the hospital for a few weeks already. I just kept giving the excuse that I was too busy with work and had no time. On top of this, I did not visit her for Hari Raya for the past 2 years. Someone who has taken care of me since I was young and all through troubled times; I am so ashamed of myself. At the present moment, I'm just blank.

I'm really sorry. I hope you're in a better place now. I tried to numb the guilt but I find it stupid, cause I am really to blame for the disappointment. I love you a lot, and for that, I'm really sorry.