Hello y'all. Back from Manchester and feeling freaking awesome and revitalised. A super nice city (& country, UK was kick-ass!) with great people and superb weather. I've not got much to say cause it's just as it is; splendid. Managed to live out a little dream of mine by visiting Old Trafford! I'd say it was a short but enriching experience, visiting Windsor castle and that tiny bit of Beatles history at Liverpool. Just keeps me wondering how it would have been like if I was born in the other side of the world.

No man is bigger than the club, remember that Ron!

Windsor castle!

Streets of Manchester!

City of Manchester!

Told you I was happy! Spastic smile!

Alright, these are all the pictures I'm putting up from the trip; little yes, but sufficient. Now the night beckons, but my body is still 7 hours behind. Good day to you Singapore.

I need a break from everyone and everything. Till the week is old, I shall see you then.

Good morning, and hello there. I do realise it's been a long time since I've updated on the on-goings in life. It's also been awhile now since the sports season has ended. Still very much in that "not-wanting-to-do-anything-except-nothing" mood. Holidays were never like this. For the past 10 years of my education life, the June and December Holidays were the months to look forward to (except maybe last year). I'm affirmative that many in the first year of various junior colleges would agree this year is totally the opposite. Having to study for Common Test right at the end of the holidays is really a nightmare. You can't actually fully enjoy yourself without feeling guilty.

Just so that my classmates who are reading this know, I have not actually started on anything concrete yet. And I think it's pretty bad news for me cause I had to miss quite a lot of lessons during the last two weeks of the semester. Now, I'm heading over to Manchester for a week for a family vacation! Lucky, I say. Though I have to admit this vacation would just be another excuse for me to put studying back a further week. I don't feel like doing anything there, like I don't think I'm going to bring any study materials over. Life is pretty ain't it? Thankfully I won't be missing any lessons at all during my absence from Singapore. That would actually have been a shot in the foot.

My life is comparable to a junkie. Honestly. With that being said, I'm going to head out to celebrate someone's birthday. I'll post another post before I leave the Lion City. Don't you worry about it, and now. Good day and good week ahead.

So I'm a little left of centre,
I'm a little out of tune.
Some say I'm paranormal,
So I just bend their spoon.
Who wants to be ordinary,
In a crazy, mixed-up world?

Everybody's looking for that something,
One thing that makes it all complete.
You'll find it in the strangest places,
Places you never knew it could be.

Today was a landmark for me, in terms of realising my potential. Attending the ASEAN Forum was very..unexpected, in a good way. To be honest, I don't really want to know about ASEAN. However, the forum was very inspiring for brief periods of moment. I've always had this desire to help others ever since attending that YMCA camp back in secondary three. And, I've always wanted to go back for another, but another never did come. Anyhow, I wasn't really sure how this forum would pan out. Fortunately, it was pretty cool. I'm sincerely grateful for today and I can only feel excited for what's to come in life.

No longer is maturity an excuse for my wrongdoings. Before soon, end of year will approach and I'll be turning 17. Now, that kinds of frighten me. It's like looking at a picture of yourself in primary school; wow, I've really grown up. Only yesterday was I struggling to reach for the cookies on the last shelf; hoping for time to fly by so that I'd be an independent adult, able to do things on my own. Days turned to months, and years came by. Now here I am, down the road, still the exact same person, but with a whole new perspective/outlook on life. That's why maturity is tangible. Only you can feel it within you. There's no point in rushing it; it comes naturally when your mind is ready for things greater than you are. Today, I'm so inspired, I feel like flying without wings.

Before I go to bed, I just have to get this off me. Today, I was filled with regret. My aunt whom I'm very close to passed away of cancer in the morning; and if that's not enough to make me sad, I had put back visiting her in the hospital for a few weeks already. I just kept giving the excuse that I was too busy with work and had no time. On top of this, I did not visit her for Hari Raya for the past 2 years. Someone who has taken care of me since I was young and all through troubled times; I am so ashamed of myself. At the present moment, I'm just blank.

I'm really sorry. I hope you're in a better place now. I tried to numb the guilt but I find it stupid, cause I am really to blame for the disappointment. I love you a lot, and for that, I'm really sorry.

I didn't really appreciate the location of my house till today. Till I found out the far-reaching buses that stops at the bus-stop near my place. Like hell, I didn't know 133 goes all the way to National Library at Bugis! I've only taken that bus to school; and usually complaining cause it takes years to arrive. My goodness.

Anyway, I've joined Bloggers Club! Freaking awesome shizz I tell you. We get the opportunity to write up on all kinds of stuff in school and I can't wait to get started. It's like the baby steps to my goal of one day being a full-fledged journalist and then of course the President of this country just like Yusoff Ishak! Technically, I'm the sports correspondent. That means I'm going to have to write up on the rugby finals tomorrow! And oh, I joined this 'Writer's Ink' competition in school. It's like this overnight writing competition; it's getting me excited!

Now now, I just can't get over the fact of how proud I am to be a Saint. Being in the Gabrielite family was freaking cool, but seriously, I've never experienced such school spirit. Those kind of things in life whereby you're proud to say, "I was part of that!"

"Fortune favours the brave, for words can never be said like this."

Once a Saint,
Always a Saint.

Lets go Team SAJC! The very last stretch, fight for the school; fight for the crest that's in your heart. Now, what are they gonna do When the Saints Go Marching In.

There were so many promises at the gates of our secondary schools. Now, half a year on, how many of them have been carried out?

It's drawing to a close. I'm really going to miss you people. The past few months have been real great. The battles that we fought on the field, the laughters and tears that we shared off them. Now, lets finish what we set out to do: bring back the Holy Grail.

"Why do you try so hard to fit in, when you were born to stand out?"

I love my life.
Every single part of it.

I have weird relationships with my friend's friends. Like I know them through certain friends, no formal introduction or anything of that sort. Just talk you know. And then we part. The next time I see them around, I feel awkward. Cause I don't know whether to just say "Hi" (which might appear to be a little too friendly since I don't exactly know them) or just to smile and walk-by; or just ignore. Typical example of a day in school. Oh well, the night is getting old,

Goodnight and have fun in school.

"For as bad-ass and unaffected as we try to come off, we're all just one sentence away from being brought to the edge of tears, if only it was worded right. And I don't want to act immune to that any more. I took the biggest detour from myself over the past year, since I decided that I wasn't going to care about what people thought about me. I got to the point where I had so much padding on that, sure, I couldn't feel the negativity, but that's because I couldn't feel much of anything. And I think I'm done with that." - John Mayer

"Whether you think you can or cannot, you're right."

Belief. Being the single quintessential reason why people succeed or flop in life.

This past week has been really challenging. There have been moments where I just question the validity of my reasonings for persevering. In such instances, I'd consider myself to be lucky, having great people around who keep my resolve deeply intact and rooted.

There was the single damning question of friendships. What with that whole new world evolving in school, life ain't no clockwork, that we could turn back to those silly times in secondary school. We seek for greater autonomy yet there are those gossip hounds out there that just won't leave you alone.

I guess that's why I have an affinity with the disabled. They seem to understand that everyone around them is special, that everyday is a gift. Isn't it a pity that we, in our youth, forget all these. Why can't society just mature? To settle for less, to be in control of their wealth.

For now, I'm just happy to be alive and kicking. I know God is preparing me for a huge battle. All these adversities that have headed my way are nothing. Please, don't sympathise with my plight. I'm not unfortunate at all, quite frankly, the opposite. Let ugly rear its uglier side, I'm ready for more.

I'm gonna fight them off, those inner demons.
They're never getting near my thoughts,
EVER AGAIN.

"If you want to be happy, be." - Leo Tolstoy

I want clarity in this confusion.
From today, I shall retire my-self to be an allusion.

Oh no, I shall not live in the mercy of those around me.
No, they must have confused me with some other me.
Let me rebuild your misconceptions,
Yesterday is history, yesterday is memory.

Time may after all not be the common enemy,
Have we lost the value of sincerity?
Every second we're thread lengths away,
You'll turn just to scream your world far far away.

When no one understands,
I'll believe you.
Let me share your sunshines,
Let me help relieve the gloom of your murky brines.

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Every day is just another day,
Don't let their words carve images of me today.