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College Day was helluva good fun. The muffins were seriously, honestly really good. Especially the chocolate ones. And I bet Vannesa voted for the eventual Saints Idol winner. She definitely did. I'm sure Deborah would have done the same if she was there! Aiye!

Sleepover with the J1 soccer peeps was the freaking fun-est thing that happened in over 2 weeks! It was super hilarious; from the Xbox sessions to disturbing Kevin to laughing at stupidity. It's definitely something unforgettable. Especially that sharing session we had before we went to sleep at five in the morning. Hahaha. Oh my gosh. If only we could spend everyday away from our differences like these. If only. I still love you guys though; lets just hope it doesn't change - ever. Now that common test is over (which I have to say was decent), June Holidays have finally begun! Albeit for a few days because there's A'Level Malay Oral next Tuesday! ZOMG.

I haven't been myself lately; or more like the whole month. It's like I've evolved into something meaner, something I detest, something I've sworn I would never be at the start of the year. Sometimes, I wake up in the morning with the most evil of evil intentions. I need to moult off all these nonsense. And now that the holidays are almost over, I think it's about time that I get a grip on myself.

1. God
2. Family, friends
3. Academics
4. SAJC Soccer

In that order.

Maybe getting out of this is a good thing; my dream all along, has soured. It wasn't as beautiful as I thought it would be - such a misfit.

Welcome to the fallout,
Welcome to resistance.
The tension is here,
The tension is here.
Between who you are and who you could be.
Between how it is and how it should be.

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"Emotions surpassed technique, determination wiped away the pain of injuries." - Soccernet.com

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt, pillars of sand.

You'll always be a part of me,
I'm part of you indefinitely.
Girl don't you know you can't escape me,
Oh darling cause you'll always be my baby.

Hello y'all. Back from Manchester and feeling freaking awesome and revitalised. A super nice city (& country, UK was kick-ass!) with great people and superb weather. I've not got much to say cause it's just as it is; splendid. Managed to live out a little dream of mine by visiting Old Trafford! I'd say it was a short but enriching experience, visiting Windsor castle and that tiny bit of Beatles history at Liverpool. Just keeps me wondering how it would have been like if I was born in the other side of the world.

No man is bigger than the club, remember that Ron!

Windsor castle!

Streets of Manchester!

City of Manchester!

Told you I was happy! Spastic smile!

Alright, these are all the pictures I'm putting up from the trip; little yes, but sufficient. Now the night beckons, but my body is still 7 hours behind. Good day to you Singapore.

I need a break from everyone and everything. Till the week is old, I shall see you then.

Good morning, and hello there. I do realise it's been a long time since I've updated on the on-goings in life. It's also been awhile now since the sports season has ended. Still very much in that "not-wanting-to-do-anything-except-nothing" mood. Holidays were never like this. For the past 10 years of my education life, the June and December Holidays were the months to look forward to (except maybe last year). I'm affirmative that many in the first year of various junior colleges would agree this year is totally the opposite. Having to study for Common Test right at the end of the holidays is really a nightmare. You can't actually fully enjoy yourself without feeling guilty.

Just so that my classmates who are reading this know, I have not actually started on anything concrete yet. And I think it's pretty bad news for me cause I had to miss quite a lot of lessons during the last two weeks of the semester. Now, I'm heading over to Manchester for a week for a family vacation! Lucky, I say. Though I have to admit this vacation would just be another excuse for me to put studying back a further week. I don't feel like doing anything there, like I don't think I'm going to bring any study materials over. Life is pretty ain't it? Thankfully I won't be missing any lessons at all during my absence from Singapore. That would actually have been a shot in the foot.

My life is comparable to a junkie. Honestly. With that being said, I'm going to head out to celebrate someone's birthday. I'll post another post before I leave the Lion City. Don't you worry about it, and now. Good day and good week ahead.

So I'm a little left of centre,
I'm a little out of tune.
Some say I'm paranormal,
So I just bend their spoon.
Who wants to be ordinary,
In a crazy, mixed-up world?

Everybody's looking for that something,
One thing that makes it all complete.
You'll find it in the strangest places,
Places you never knew it could be.

Today was a landmark for me, in terms of realising my potential. Attending the ASEAN Forum was very..unexpected, in a good way. To be honest, I don't really want to know about ASEAN. However, the forum was very inspiring for brief periods of moment. I've always had this desire to help others ever since attending that YMCA camp back in secondary three. And, I've always wanted to go back for another, but another never did come. Anyhow, I wasn't really sure how this forum would pan out. Fortunately, it was pretty cool. I'm sincerely grateful for today and I can only feel excited for what's to come in life.

No longer is maturity an excuse for my wrongdoings. Before soon, end of year will approach and I'll be turning 17. Now, that kinds of frighten me. It's like looking at a picture of yourself in primary school; wow, I've really grown up. Only yesterday was I struggling to reach for the cookies on the last shelf; hoping for time to fly by so that I'd be an independent adult, able to do things on my own. Days turned to months, and years came by. Now here I am, down the road, still the exact same person, but with a whole new perspective/outlook on life. That's why maturity is tangible. Only you can feel it within you. There's no point in rushing it; it comes naturally when your mind is ready for things greater than you are. Today, I'm so inspired, I feel like flying without wings.

Before I go to bed, I just have to get this off me. Today, I was filled with regret. My aunt whom I'm very close to passed away of cancer in the morning; and if that's not enough to make me sad, I had put back visiting her in the hospital for a few weeks already. I just kept giving the excuse that I was too busy with work and had no time. On top of this, I did not visit her for Hari Raya for the past 2 years. Someone who has taken care of me since I was young and all through troubled times; I am so ashamed of myself. At the present moment, I'm just blank.

I'm really sorry. I hope you're in a better place now. I tried to numb the guilt but I find it stupid, cause I am really to blame for the disappointment. I love you a lot, and for that, I'm really sorry.